New life. Yes, after waking up for how many months in a new environment, i now completely embrace the mere fact that i NEED to live a new life. It is very obvious that i'm in a new place and i've been living here for a month now. Whenever i turn back what i had experienced, i just sit on a corner and sob. Yeah, i do. And will. I made a big stupid decision and made my life a big mess. But people change. People TRY to change to have a new behavior. A new habit. A new life. There is nothing that i can do to surpass what mess i made, but instead i have to live up to it. I really don't imagine myself living here, in this far-from-civilization place. Its really different from where i was held to grow. Yet indeed, it is a new life. I don't imagine myself being far away from my family. Away from my loved ones: Friends and my boyfriend. It's hard to take. Not graduating with my batchmates on my old school. Its hard to place inside my vulnerable heart, but there's nothing that i can do. Just embrace it fully. Patience. That's what i need. I just have to wait for how many months for i can go back home. Back from where i left my loved ones. Back from where i left myself, in my little boxed room - tuning up the radio and try to sing the songs at the top of my crapped voice. Love. I also need. I have to love the people here. For they love me back too. I wish. Trust. Trust. Trust. Even in myself i doubt it. But heck, I have to trust the ones i left and the ones i just met. Loyalty. *Straight face. Yes, i need loyalty. I forgot what i need, what i sought for. Gahd. Gimme a Mocha Frap and some Cinnamon please. Okay, so what i was asking for was not given here, coz only Smoked Bananas, dilluted Milo and inflated monays are the fads here. No Starbucks, No Sun Cellular, No Party. Hence, NO LIFE. Yes, a new environment. New BIG life. Not a big new lie. Oh well, Mikki, just think that tomorrow's your flight back home. But wait, there's something inside of me. Sparks a light-- saying "how about your new friends here?". Oh man, i forgot about them. Early as of today i forgot them. Oh crud. Maybe i'll just have to bring my happy and new experiences here to Manila. And SURELY, i will not forget them. Our stupid laughter. Aww. So cute. So yeah that's the summary of my new life. There's more to come. Sayonara. ;) | 
